Lost Souls with Uncertain Futures

This has been a blog that was in my mind for almost a couple years now.   I know I haven’t written anything for almost two years, which is something I need to get back into considering life for me is so much better when I do write, or to create in general.  For that, I decided this blog would be a good start for other things to come.  As I said earlier, this has been in my mind for quite some time now, and it’s time to finally get it out into the open.  About five years ago, I lost two good friends of mine under different circumstances, some being my fault and others completely out of my control.  Finding it ironic though that I lost both friends around the same time, and after thinking about it they also seemed to be nearly on the same parallel of each other.  Both went to ITT Tech, a now-defunct college which both guys received degrees at.  Plus, both had the same recognition of being gamers, liking Star Wars and Star Trek, and even comic books to some degree.  Also, looking back as to how I stopped being friends with both guys, over time I began to realize that it was all really for the best in the long run.  Both guys, MSB and DJO, have a substantial amount of issues between the both of them, so much so that along with my personal issues at hand I needed to be out of my life completely.  So, here it is, a blog for me to give myself closure to the situation once and for all. 

MSB

This gentleman I met while I was in Basic Training at Ft. Knox back in 2009.  Of all the recruits that were in our platoon, he was one of the few cool, like-minded guys that I befriended while going through the rigorous training on becoming a Soldier.  Unfortunately for MSB, he was unable to graduate with our platoon and therefore was recycled into the next company that was to graduate.  He did complete Basic Training, along with AIT, and went into the Regular Army where he served for about five years total.  As my time in the Army, his time was not very good at all.  MSB had the same issues I had to deal with: toxic leadership, bad morale, dumbasses, and no way of trying to better himself due to those circumstances.  He did eventually get out of the Army through a medical discharge, I think largely for having Asperger Syndrome and some other ailments he obtained with serving.  Over the time after Basic Training, I and MSB stayed in contact with one another, I was sort of sad that he was leaving the Army being he was one of the very few people in the Military I knew of that had similar tastes as I did.  However, if he was injured or unfit to keep serving then it was best that he got out when he did.  The reason we stopped talking was largely in part of my doing: I was joking around with him online, sort of praising him in a sense of his Military service because he felt his time in the Army was a complete waste.  However, I took the joke way too far than what it should have gone and MSB got pissed off and blocked me from just about everything he had on the internet.  At first, I was upset and surprised he did this, considering I was also an editor for a page he owned on Facebook.  Then, after about six months, I tried to get in contact with him to apologize for what I did, and in turn, MSB just blew me off and didn’t respond at all.  After that, my original Facebook account got hacked into and I was unable to log into it.  For some reason, I always thought it was MSB who did this, considering he was a pretty tech-savvy guy.  My final attempt to try to bring peace with him was promoting his blog page to the masses, which all that did was only infuriate MSB more and began to threaten to call the FBI on me.  That was the final straw for me and once I found out about that I concluded my attempts on trying to bring any kind of compromise to him.  At the time when this was happening, I was suffering greatly from injuries, a TBI, and eventually, a nervous breakdown which led to me being suicidal from my unit’s overloaded work schedule that really had no meaning except to make our leader’s OERs and NCOERs look good.  After the nervous breakdown I had suffered, I began my medical discharge process out of the Army which was concluded five months later with me being medically retired, but that’s another story for another time.  Since then, I began to notice that MSB did have numerous issues with himself and I wasn’t the only one that he did this to.  For instance, there was a mutual friend of ours who he also cut ties with because he simply suggested he should leave the New Orleans area, which is where MSB is from and went back to after leaving the Army.  Also, he stopped being friends with many people for other various reasons, such as political views, currently being in the Military, and even simple disagreements of such minute topics like UFOs.  MSB, overall, seems to put out any sort of reason to stop talking to people, whether if it’s logical or not.  Plus, later on, MSB wrote about me being suicidal and just mocked me for it, which was literally one of the worst things you can do.  Although he somewhat apologized for his comments, that was still a hit below the belt for even just mentioning something like that.  For being a Veteran himself, MSB is well aware of the number of Veteran suicides that happen every day, twenty-two to be exact.  Also, over time I began to see the hypocrisy in MSB that really showed he wasn’t a very good person.  For instance, he claims to be a Christian, but yet doesn’t practice much of the beliefs in that religion, such as forgiveness.  Also, he claims to always try to rid his life of toxic people, which I don’t disagree with him the least being I do so myself, but it comes back to how he rids people from his life, like as though he tries to find a reason to stop talking to them.  There is a fine line of getting rid of toxic people from your life, and just being stuck up altogether, which MSB is the latter.  Also, MSB simply acts too much as an opportunist when it comes to friendships, religion, business to the point he really doesn’t deserve to have any friends or be successful in any venture he gets himself into.  Finally, his stance on marijuana use I find not agreeable with.  MSB seems like one of those that support the legalization of its use but doesn’t want to associate with anyone who does the substance, whether for medical or recreational use.  Sort of reminds me of an ex-girlfriend of mine, in a sense.

          

          However, despite all the negative views I have with MSB, I do hope he has his life in order and does have a successful life after the Army.  There are a few things I do actually agree with him, for one, on what happened to him on Facebook.  Any of you who didn’t notice, after the 2016 presidential election, Facebook began to fully censor people who had conservative views, whether if it was posting videos about certain topics or even just making memes and posting them onto the website.  MSB was renowned for his meme-making, and Facebook kept banning him for posts he did a couple years prior.  The situation got so bad for him that he ended up deleting his account, and the music page I was part of before he blocked me.  Now, let me mind you, I was sort of celebrating the demise of his music page and profile because I was thinking about my olde Facebook account that got hacked into.  However, I didn’t agree with the reasoning behind it, mainly because I’m an advent supporter of free speech and free speech is for everybody, including the ones you don’t agree with.  I remember before I even made a parody blog with his writings, which I thought if I did put more time into it, I would’ve made it really funny.  However, I decided to delete it because I really didn’t want to waste my time with something that anything to do with the dude.  The only thing nowadays I really look at when it comes to MSB is his views on retro game consoles, video games, and olde arcade games.  The reason for it is because that is one topic, he actually knows quite a bit about, when the other references I have don’t give me a thorough answer.  But that’s all I use him for is just another reference or opinion, on the subject at hand.  I still will not say or support anything he does, largely after he threatened to call the FBI and my unit about me supposedly stalking him.  In fact, MSB even tried to say that to me after I was out of the Army, “Just because you’re out of the Military, doesn’t mean you’re safe,” garbage, like as though I was parked right outside his house.  Even for some crazy notion he finds a cure for AIDS or invents a piece of cutting-edge technology, I still won’t say anything good about the guy.  I won’t say anything bad either, but certainly nothing anything good.  MSB burned that bridge ten times over. 

DJO

This was an even harder blow to me, considering I was friends with DJO for almost twenty years up to when we stopped being friends.  Sadly, after looking back at the situation it seemed inevitable to happen.  It started really back about fourteen years ago when I and a mutual friend of both me and DJO were talking about his habits and his activities.  At the time, DJO was about thirty years olde, and he was still hanging out at the same twenty-four-hour restaurants with the same sixteen to twenty-one-year olde crowds that go there.  I began to think about why DJO was continuing to do something that me and him, along with a few other people we know, were doing when we were in that age group.  It is not that he was dumb, DJO was a very smart guy.  To me, I always felt it was sort of a getaway from almost all the stresses he had in life, kind of like his comfort zone.  However, as the years went by and as I and other mutual friends began to move away from hanging out at those restaurants, DJO would still continue going there.   Then, a year and a half after talking with the mutual friend of ours, I moved out of my dad’s place after I and him got into a heated argument.  With nowhere else to go, I went to DJO’s place to live after telling him what had happened.  While living with him, I tried helping him assist his father, who lived there as well, to try to overcome an issue he had.  His father’s issue was that he was a hoarder, and was very bad with it.  I knew about it since I became friends with DJO, through him telling me and visiting him at his house.  Also, DJO’s father had an issue of hanging out with a bunch of crack whores, which he started doing after he got divorced from his wife.  I agreed to help DJO any way I can while living at his place, and help pay the bills and so forth.  However, looking back at the time I lived with DJO, I and he only grew further apart.  For one, he began to stop trying to change his father, despite the fact his dad found out he had colon cancer and ended up getting surgery for it.  DJO simply had a tendency to just give up when something wasn’t going his way immediately.  As a result, he ended up retreating back to his comfort zones of twenty-four restaurants and playing D&D (Dungeons & Dragons), which he was an advent player of, and even created a game for a group of people with him as the DM(Dungeon Master).  Over the time I lived with DJO, nothing seemed to be going my way at all.  First off, I wasn’t speaking to my parents at all, and I didn’t even want to talk to them after the argument I had with my father.  I was never in good standings with my mother, which again is a whole another story in itself so I’m not going to go into full detail on that.  Secondly, this was around the time when the recession hit, and I ended up getting laid off from my job.  And thirdly, DJO’s excuses for not being able to do anything about his father and just retreating to gaming made my time there miserable.  That was one thing DJO always had a problem with, which was making excuses for why he couldn’t do something.  One thing I did learn while I lived with him was why his brother and sister don’t want much to do with him, because of his self-loathing and overall sense of not doing anything for himself.  Luckily, while I was living with him, I found some friends that helped me guide my decisions on getting out of his place.  Although I already had the idea in my head, my newfound friends told me I should look into joining the Military.  I eventually did go into the Army and got out of DJO’s place after living with him for two years.  After joining the Army, I and DJO really drifted away much further, largely in part he ended up coming out of the closet, which was a huge shock to me considering I knew how he was with the opposite sex in the past.  Plus, I remember DJO telling me before I left for Basic Training, to not act like I was better than everyone else because I was in the Military and they weren't, which is not an issue at all for me, but yet he turns around and ignores people who are not into RPGs(Role Playing Games) or into the card game Magic.  Also, his politics were very liberal, which only gotten even more so in later years to the point DJO started to base his friendships on that subject, and that was how we stopped talking altogether.  He eventually became an Anti-Trumper, along with his new boyfriend, and also the two ended up getting married.  All in all, I still feel very disturbed about that, considering I was his roommate. 

                

             Despite DJO becoming homosexual, and also claiming to be transgender later on as well (he’s really lost his rocker), I’m glad he has found happiness with someone, even though it is a dude.  That ordeal still boggles me to this day, considering how long I’ve known the man.  I know his brother, on the other hand, would’ve claimed that DJO was always gay from the beginning.  I can see him definitely joking about that.  Also, I know his father is no longer with us, so DJO has to live on his own without any help from his parents, which he should anyways be considering he is in his forties now.  Overall, I hope he does maintain his happiness and tries to guide himself on a more positive note.

I am glad to know that I’m in a good place right with my life.  I found a nice home here in Pueblo, CO, where the scenery is beautiful and the people are nice.  Also, I have found some like-minded people here in this town that shares much of the same tastes as I do.  After getting medically retired from the Army, I decided to stay in Colorado over going back to Illinois and I couldn’t be much happier with my decision.  I mean, where else can I easily own a gun and smoke pot legally?  Finally, I would like to again say best of wishes to both MSB and DJO, for a good and fruitful life.  To whatever brings them joy, whether good, bad, odd and so forth, continue to give them growth in a more, positive atmosphere.

On a final note

Visiting Relatives, Doctor Visits, Back to School and other Recent Issues

Oh, I hate procrastination.  I’ve cumulated a lot of blog topics this past summer and didn’t even type one blog.  I’m kicking myself in the ass right now.  I wanted to get at least four done before the next semester started, but it looks like I’ll be doing them during the semester and quite possibly the next one.    Anyways, let us talk about my summer this year.  First off, my dad came to my house to visit, or at least I thought that was his intention in doing.  He brought over a load of things that were mine, along with some furniture, towels, and some olde clothes of mine that I thought were long gone.  I was happy to see my father, he was around for the Fourth of July in my area, which was at high risk for fires going out of control if not put out properly.  In fact, my area was in a code red meaning no one could cook, smoke, have any campfires, or do fireworks during the holiday.  It was like that for a good month here in Pueblo.  The reason for it was because the state of Colorado had three major wildfires this past summer, with the worst one only fifty miles southwest from me.  It was interesting, though sad because two of the wildfires were created by people being careless.  I really don’t think people nowadays know to build a proper campfire.  Well, as I’m going off-topic, let’s get back to my dad.  As I thought he was coming here to visit, along with bringing some much-needed stuff, his plan was to come live with me for a few months!  I was kind of shocked about this when he told me.  I mean, I love my dad, but I don’t want him to move in with me.  I and he cannot live together, it has been tried a few times and it simply doesn’t work.  Also, my dad seems to have it in his head that he wants to leave my mom, which should’ve happened over twenty years ago.  It was his decision to stay with my mom after they got divorced, which was an extremely bad idea from the get-go.  So, now being I have a house my dad thinks he can just move right into my place.  As I said before, I love my dad, but we cannot live together.  It just doesn’t work.  So, he ended up staying for three weeks, which was plenty and left me some money, which I can always use.  He hasn’t contacted me since then, nor has my mom.  However, I should be hearing from them in the next couple of weeks as my birthday is approaching.

One great thing that did happen this summer for me was finally getting my first medical evaluation since leaving the Army.  It took some time to get it scheduled, but I finally got the appointment and went through with flying colors, well, a little bit I guess.  The evaluation took an hour, and I had to go up to Colorado Springs for it.  The end was the result of it was I am officially diagnosed with PTSD.  The doctor that did my evaluation was shocked that the Army didn’t diagnose me before, but I’m not surprised about it.  The Army loves to not take responsibility for their own actions.  The plus side of it is my disability is not going away.  Now, I’ll have to get my DD-214 updated with a permanent disability, not a temporary disability.  This comes up to another project I’ve been thinking about the past few months of this year.  As some of you may know, I have another blog here, called Ass Kissers and Toxic Leaders, talking about some of my experiences and my views on the US Army.  I’ve decided I want to take this a step further and make a book of it.  I will still be adding entries into my blog, which will result in a collection I will put together for a book.  However, this is going to be a challenge considering the Army is not going to just allow a book to talk about all its bad sides to be published.  I would still have to bring my manuscript to DoD to get their approval, which I know they will not approve a book showing the Army in a negative light.  This is why I will still be adding entries to my blog.  In fact, a couple months ago I decided to put disclaimers at the end of each entry in that blog, just to avoid any kind of legal action that may try to intervene.  The doctor that evaluated me said she knew an investigative reporter that would like to know more of my story.  Unfortunately, I forgot to ask to give me the info of that reporter, so I’m looking around for someone to help me with the book.  Also, I began to look at some of the repercussions that would happen if this did get published successfully.  First, I may lose my disability. Then, most if not all, the benefits that I got after leaving the Army.  And finally, nearly every Veteran I know, along with the few friends I have are still in Active Duty, will turn their back on me and say I shouldn’t have done it.  But, I don’t care, it needs to be told.  I’m already talking about it online, and I haven’t even scratched the surface yet.  So, stay tuned with my blog. 

Finally, I am back in school after deciding to do another semester.  It’s already been almost a month now since it started, doesn’t feel like it though.  This semester I’m taking more credit hours than the last one, and I’m liking every class I have.  The teachers this time around are awesome, and I got my disability locked into the school, which means I get to take my tests in a separate room away from the rest of the class.  My anxiety is still pretty bad, but I’m trying to get it under control as much as I can.  After my diagnosis, I have to go to the VA Clinic in my town twice a month to get monitored.  A lot of the same people are still at the school from the last semester, so a fair amount of familiar faces.  I just wish my stipend would come in very soon, but then again, I got signed up very late for this semester.  I need to make a note to not wait till the last minute to sign up for classes.  Now, time for homework! 😎

The Worst Two Jobs I Ever Had

Over the past couple of months, when I wasn’t doing schoolwork, I began to think about the very awful jobs I used to have.  Of course, the Army was no picnic by any means, which I was also pondering about as well.  However, these two employers I really disdained that I worked for, Baker & Taylor and American Sale, were such terrible, toxic environments that they would make anyone employed with them want to immediately sign up for the Military.  Seriously!  Both these employers literally treat their employees like cattle, pay them very little for the workload that needs to be done, and expect their employees to literally sell their soul to the company.  For me, after what I have gone through and on what I know now after being in the Army, I would never, ever work for a company that acted like two employers.  In fact, if I ever did start working for someone that if they do anything remotely similar to what companies have done, I would walk out and same quit immediately.  Here’s the breakdown of both of these companies.

Baker & Taylor

This is a book and media distribution center, which was located in Illinois where I used to live.  I remember when I first looked into the job, I saw they had a tuition payment program where the company would pay for your schooling.  Immediately, a green light came on into my head and I wanted to get into that place.  I was working in a warehouse beforehand, so I wasn’t new to that kind of environment.  Also, the job was closer to home for me, which was also another great benefit on my part.  However, it didn’t take too long for me to realize how bad this job was after working there for less than a month.  For one, the company imposes a quota system for all its workers to meet per hour.  The amount of production the company demanded of its employees was ridiculous at best.  I mean, I understand when you’re a job, you’re expected to work, hence the point of it.  But, when you demand an extreme amount of production from your workers and they start getting injured left and right, there are going to be some problems.  I’ve never heard so many cases of carpal tunnel from employees in all my life when I worked there.  Also, this company, after I was working there for six months, decided to lift their tuition payment program, which was the main reason why I was working there in the first place.  Later on, though, I talked to a few of my coworkers and they told the company does that intentionally to get new applicants and employees into the place.  Finally, I will never forget when I found out a coworker of mine that worked there getting a heart attack while on the job.  At first, he was saying his chest was sore, thinking like he had heartburn.  He ended up ignoring the pain and went to work, but then an hour later he collapsed on the ground grabbing his chest.  The paramedics immediately came to the company and took him to the hospital.  His wife worked the second shift there, as he was working the first, and she didn’t know what had happened until arriving at the place.  The manager of the section she worked told her what had happened earlier and said she should go to the hospital immediately.  But, as she left to go to the hospital, that same manager ended up writing not only her, but her husband as well, and the following day both were released from the company.  I mean, you literally have to be a stone-cold motherfucker to just think of doing something like that, let alone actually doing it.  What a terrible and inhumane company Baker & Taylor, and I’m surprised they’re still in operation to this day.   

No wonder why people that worked there didn't read books 

American Sale

This joint is a pool and spa recreational store with multiple locations around the Chicago area.  I got the job here through a friend of my parents after moving out of my girlfriend’s place a month prior.  This was a time for me to start fresh and get back on my feet.  However, this job was complete garbage right from day one.  First off, there was this little black guy that worked there who was in his forties and still living with and being taken care of by his parents.  He always tried to act tough and kept pulling my chain the entire time I was there.  A few times, I and him almost got into a fistfight.  This idiot would do the same thing with just about everyone that worked in our section, which was spa delivery.  However, the worse person in this section was the manager, who thought he was so high and mighty because he worked for the company twenty years and I think he got married to a relative of the owner, I’m not so sure.  This guy was completely lazy, never wanted to teach or train personnel, and always made a big deal talking about what he did when he first started in the company.  There was another manager in the section as well, but he was in charge of repairs with hot tubs and pool tables as opposed to delivery.  This guy was a huge snake in the grass, he would literally try to stab people in the back because he thought everyone was going after his job.  There was never a moment that he tried to go after the section manager of our department’s job, because he started just after that manager in the company.  It was pretty pathetic, to be honest, seeing someone literally chase after small scraps because he never did anything meaningful in his entire life.  Also, one of the guys I would work with, an older man who actually spoke up against our manager when we were all getting shit on all the time, between the stores where we had to pick up merchandise, salesman lying the customers about certain installations we did, and the overall negative customer feedback we got when delivering hot tubs or pool tables, which is what we mainly did.  This pissed off our section manager all the time and wanted to try to find a way to get rid of him.  However, our manager was afraid to do so because the guy I worked with was black and didn’t want to deal with a lawsuit if he fired him.  Unfortunately, he did find ways to make that guy’s life hard by giving us crappy deliveries and harped on us to work faster even if we got back to the warehouse before the end of the day.  Also, that manager had this bitch of a secretary who would do the same things he would do to us as well.  In the end, though, he found something to get rid of me, that asshole.  Yes, I’m talking about you, TG!  You better pray I never see you in public.  I GOT YOUR NAME, I GOT YOUR ASS!  

It was no holiday working there

                                               

Both of these companies had a similar agenda when it came to their employees; if someone stays for a certain amount of time there, they try to find ways to push people out the door because they don’t want to give out raises or pay for benefits.  It doesn’t matter if you’re an amazing worker, it’s the dollar bill these companies are worried about, and they’ll do anything to spend less of it. 

And In Recent News.......

Well, the first five months of this year was quite interesting, to say the least.  In case if any of you didn’t know, I began to go to college again in January.  I just finished the semester about two weeks ago, did my finals and I just received my final grades a couple days ago.  I passed all my classes, even though I missed a couple assignments in some of my classes due to my extremely poor memory.  I’m looking to sign up for the fall semester in the next month.  This was the first time going back to a classroom environment style of college in over a decade, being the college courses I took before were online.  One thing though for sure it was an eye-opener, a whole new experience in college.  Literally, almost everything in college is all electronic and online, which I don’t know if this is a good thing or not.  I mean, I know the internet plays a huge role in our lives nowadays, but I feel we as a society shouldn’t get too dependent on it.  There will come a time when the internet will be down for a while and no one isn’t going to know what to do.  The schools across the country should balance out doing work online and offline so students can grasp both concepts if that time comes. 
           

Also, in March during my spring break, a friend of mine from Illinois came to visit me.  She was the first visitor I had to come to see me at my house that wasn’t a relative of mine.  My friend was only in Colorado for three days, but it was nice to do some things in the area and go do some sightseeing.  We both went to a bar in town that was featuring some metal bands on one night.  At first, I thought the metal bands were going to be the cookie monster growling style nu-metal BS that seems all too common, but they all played thrash metal to my surprise.  I literally thought that kind of metal went extinct over a decade ago.  That made me happy to see people not only be interested in that music but also playing it as well.  This is one thing I’ve started to do to get out of the house, which is to go see bands play in my town.  Just last week, I saw a local indie rock band play in Pueblo, which was just awesome.  I bought some of their music, a t-shirt, and even got a free poster of them, with the members signing it.  I haven’t done anything like that in over a decade when I was still living in the Chicago area.  I was refreshing, and I look forward to doing more of this in the future. 
         

My guitar playing is getting better every day, being I play every single day.  I want to start learning some songs and find some likeminded musicians in my area to jam with.  I recently purchased a Gibson SG, a second time I’ve owned this kind of guitar.  The reason being was I need a good playing, lightweight guitar so when my back goes out on me or is extremely sore, I still have something to play.  I’m primarily a Les Paul player so something lightweight with humbuckers will do just right for me.  I would like to get a band together soon, at least have something by the end of summer. 

My new SG, with one of the many amps I play on. 

           

I feel I should be celebrating after finding out the SJW cuck’s music page I used to be part of is shutting down largely in part of him getting booted off the site thirty days at a time with some posts he made.  However, I am not because of the reason why he is booted off for thirty days at a time.  Facebook, in the past year or so, has gotten so left-wing and leftist it started to ban people who post anything that’s considered right-wing, or simply anything that doesn’t agree with their political views.  But yet, Facebook seems to have no problems with people calling out or even saying they want to assassinate the President of the United States.  Look, I wasn’t all thrilled either when Donald Trump was elected president, but I don’t wish the man dead, nor do I try to find any kind of stupid dirt to attempt to impeach him.  Like it or not, that man is our president and won the election fair and square.  There was no Russian interference, no phony ballots of any kind.  People need to really start realizing this, and very soon.  Anyways, the cuck’s page is going to be shut down very soon, and quite possibly his time on Facebook is also coming to an end.  I even began to think of parting ways myself, because I can’t stand the atmosphere that Facebook has become.  Last year, I went looking around at other social media sites to be part of that were politically neutral and don’t care what their patrons say or think.  I found two sites: Minds.com and Gabi.ai.  I made profiles in each one for more exposure to my blogs, although I haven’t done too much with them since joining.  I’m hoping to remedy that during this summer break from school.  As of right now, my music page is going to stay open for the time being, until further notice.  Well, that’ it, for now, I hope I keep up with writing too during this summer.

Wow! I Almost Don’t Have Anything to Say!

Well, it was pretty sudden I must say.  I honestly would’ve never predicted this happening.  The SJW cuck that I’ve been having a long war with actually apologized for his comment on wanting me to commit suicide.  I didn’t think of him even remotely coming close to even do such an act, but anything in life is possible.  However, I am happy glad he did see his error and made amends to it because there are other Veterans in the world besides myself that are going through the same garbage I’m going through.  He should’ve been more thoughtful and observant of that.  Also, he said he’s going to stop talking about me in his blogs, which really does call out for a celebration!  That means I don’t have to worry about him posting garbage out of his ass every time he opens his mouth.  It seems like now the war may be coming to an end between us, thank God!  I was afraid this was going to be dragging on for years and years with no end in sight.  Also, I can finally delete my parody blog of him, which I’ve been wanting to do for quite a few months now.  The reason for it is that I overspread my energies to too many things at once, and I needed to reorganize and condense what I am doing.  That blog was one thing that needed to go, for one it was a waste of good creative energy that could be used for something else for meaningful.  Second, with school work and other, much better activities I am part of, it was just becoming an empty shell; only posted one entry and nothing else on the horizon.  Plus, I want to focus on my newer blog, Ass Kissers and Toxic Leaders, which has more meaning and purpose than some satire/parody blog, although it would be funny but serves no real purpose except pissing off the SJW cuck.  In fact, my original tensions for this entry was an all-out assault on the asshole, but after his recent posts on his blog, I decided it was unnecessary.  For that, I feel it is time to end hostilities for the time being, largely because there are other fish to fry.  Here are some thoughts I have come up with this guy:

1.  He seems to burn a lot of bridges all the time - I’ve seemed to notice this as being quite a habit.  Sometimes it’s for the good of things, but other times it seems to be just a difference of opinion, whether it be political, current events, or simply a suggestion of moving out of a location or career change.  Maybe it was for the best that we no longer are friends.

2.  He wants to create a social media site for musicians?! – I’m not sure if that would be the prudent thing to do, especially if he likes to ban and block people from his life.  I don’t know if this is retaliation for Facebook because he has been having issues on getting booted off there for thirty days a few times already.  If it’s anything like his music page, where it only features hair metal, KISS, and some actual good metal bands, it won’t be very successful or last very long.  He would probably just block anyone who isn’t into metal or KISS.

I can definitely see this cuck add this button on his keyboard after he does make that social media site. 

3.  He is not a true Christian, bottom line – I’m sorry, but I don’t know what church he goes to, but he is certainly not a true Christian in any form.  Now, I’m not bashing Christianity, but I remember when I had to go to Sunday School years ago they did teach everyone about forgiveness.  Now, I’m not saying discernment should be done, as what this guy talks about in one of his posts, but that’s only when someone doesn’t forgive.  There are over twenty verses in the Bible that talk about forgiveness, but I decided to post these three, being they’re my favorite and most blunt:  Matthew 6:14-15, Luke 17:3-4, and Ephesians 4:31-32.  Look them up if you want to know what they say.  I have spoken.

4.  He still thinks I’m cyberstalking him – Umm, yeah, I have other things I prefer to do with my life than to know what you’re up to, dude.   The only reason I actually look at your blog in the first place is I want to see if you’re running your mouth about me.  That is something I don’t take very kindly, especially after I apologized for what I did, and I know I was very clear on my apology.  You say the FBI is going to get me if I keep looking at your blog you say?  As I said before, the FBI will not go after someone that is looking at a page that is fully open to the public.  Now, if it was made private or if I tried to hack into something you’re in that was made private, then it would be a different story.  However, I don’t see a reason or a point to do something like that, I have other issues to attend.  If I were you, I would worry about the FBI going after you for what you are posting on Facebook that’s making you get booted off there thirty days at a time.  But, if you do stop mentioning me in your blog posts, then I will no longer have a reason to look at your blog.

Conclusion: As I’ve said before, I think it's best we are no longer friends.  The reason being is that I couldn’t be friends, or just be around people where I would have to tippy-toe around them so they don’t get offended in some way.  Life is too short for such things, and if you don’t feel comfortable around certain people, it’s best just not to be around or associate with them.  This guy seems like he should’ve never left his comfort zone that is the New Orleans area to go into the Army, or for any reason honestly.  He hated being in the Army, which I don’t fully blame him for, but failed to see that he did something that ninety-nine percent of the US population didn’t do, which is really what I wanted him to see before he cut ties with me.  I wasn’t shaming him for leaving the Army, I just wanted him to have some pride in what he had done, that’s all.  For his “social media for musicians,” which I kind of laughed typing this, I don’t think it would be a great idea for him, considering his current history with social media in general.  I suggest you stick with a retro game store, your knowledge of old games and gaming systems is unparalleled to most people and I can see you be very successful in that field.  Also, for anyone that reads this and is still friends with this guy, I would strongly recommend you part ways with him as soon as possible.  He seems like the type of person that will go out of his way to find a reason to stop talking to people.  So, if I were any of you, I would cut ties with him before you become another one of his victims to his craziness.  Plus, I hope along with going to church he is getting some professional psychiatric help because he surely does need it, not that I’m boasting about it because I’m kind of in that situation as well.  The Military has a tendency to make any normal human being into a crazed psychopath literally overnight, which is the reason why no one is willing to join despite the large money bonuses and free schooling it promises to anyone who leaves on an honorable discharge.  However, my parody blog of this guy will be deleted and taken down.  Hopefully, it is one step closer for this little war to end once and for all.

Hopefully, this is the end, once and for all. 

What’s Been Happening with Me Thus Far, and The Future Looks Bright

Wow! What an interesting time the past couple of months were.  First off, I ended up getting sick again, around late September and early October (on my birthday of all times!)  Hopefully it’s the last real bad sickness I have for a very long time and hope the Army crud has fully escaped my body.  I was also supposed to start school in September, but the good folks that work in the federal government didn’t send out my award certificate on my GI Bill in time to sign up for classes.  By the time I received my letter, the semester was near mid-term and I had to wait until December to sign up for the spring semester.  Obviously, I wasn’t very happy about the situation.  I was looking forward to starting school and finish my degree in Accounting once and for all, but it was postponed until the fifteenth of this month.  I can’t wait for it.  Last month I met with a business advisor at my school to sign up for classes plus also got my VA packet complete and sent to the Veterans office on campus.  I will be heading back to the school before the fifteenth to get my books and a copy of my schedule, which I can probably get the schedule thru their website.  Overall, I’m happy I’ll be heading back to school and finally finish my degree once and for all, with everything paid for from the tuition to the books to even living expenses. 

Also, back in November, after much consideration and research, I decided to purchase a PS4.  It has become the first game console I have owned since having a Sega Genesis back in the nineties.  The reason why I bought it was because it seemed that computer games, which the exception of a few, were starting to go on the wayside and game consoles were getting much more sophisticated in what they can do.  I mean, I can get Netflix on it if I wanted to or any other subscription it seems, and I have a DVD player that I can watch some of my movies with on the television.  I have a couple games thus far, but I don’t know about getting any more, as being the console’s space is 1 TB and with five games in its total 500 GBs took already.   I wonder if it can use an external hard drive?    

My sports card collection is getting bigger and even more awesome by the day it seems.  In the last couple of months, I have been getting some very olde cards from the thirties, fifties, and the sixties.  I finally have a couple Mickey Mantle cards from when he was still playing, which has been a dream for me to obtain all of his cards from his playing days.  A good start, I should say, but many more to get so it’ll take some time for it to grow, I mean, card collecting really is a slow process that takes patience, if done right.  However, I am sad about a card shop that was only down the street from where I live closed down in late November.  The reason why was the owner got robbed by a couple of sorry pieces of shit drug addicts, with one of them having a pistol that hit the owner with upside the head.  This happened back in October, and when he told me about it I got so furious I wanted to come to his shop and post guard with my shotgun.  It was that time also he told me about closing the store, after being open for over twenty years.  He said he was going to just sell his inventory at home online through eBay, so I keep in small contact with him.  I still can’t believe how some people are, I mean, the gentleman is a Veteran going on the age of seventy, you don’t pistol-whip a man like that.  All I know is if I ever find out who robbed him, there going to regret ever thinking about stepping into his store. 

Procrastination seems to have also gotten the best of me in the past couple of months.  I’ve been wanting to start writing again in full force, but my output hasn’t been very much.  However, I have started up the blog I’ve promised all of you that I would, titled “Ass Kissers and Toxic Leaders”.  I have a couple posts so far and look out for more in the following year when I’m not busy with school, or with part-time work if I so choose to do.  Speaking of part-time work, last month I worked at the Sears store located in the town where I live.  It was only seasonal, but I did so well at it my boss told me if I wanted to stay after the holidays.  I told him I would love to but I have school starting in mid-January and my GI Bill will be covering not just my schooling, but my living expenses as well.  He was happy for me, but I feel he wasn’t thrilled I wasn’t staying because I ended up being one of his better workers.  Oh well, when I’m not in school I’ll just stop by and ask if they need any temporary help during that time, unless if the Sears here in town decides to shut down as it seems like a good portion of them are, and I know the one in the town I used to live at in Illinois is closing its doors.  Sad, really, but that’s another story in itself.  Another reason for my procrastination in writing is my gaming habit not just with my PS4, but on my computer.  I recently purchased Rome II: Total War that was on sale through Steam, along with some of the expansion parts.  It was the first time I saw a price drop on that in the entire time it’s been available so I advantage of it.  Very good game, as to how most of the Total War games are, although I don’t care much for the Warhammer series they recently got into the last couple years.  Also, I got a chance to come home for Christmas, the folks paid for my plane ticket and such, and I got to see my grandparents as well.  They’re getting up there in age, but managing.  My grandmother has dementia, and my grandfather has a hard time moving around.  I’m really not looking forward to that call from my parents that one of them has passed, that will not be a good day at all.  So, I ended up staying in Illinois for three days, and while I was there the Chicago area experienced its first huge snowfall in four years.  I was happy to see a White Christmas for the first time in years, but I wasn’t happy when the temperature dropped to single digits.  That’s what happens when you live in mostly high temperate climates for a few years in a row, you lose your tolerance of the cold.

Another issue I really need to discuss is the reappearance of the SJW cuck I went to Basic Training with.  This jackass doesn’t know when to shut the fuck up, honestly.  Yes, I’m talking about you, MSB, you sorry excuse of a human being.  Your last post saying you would like to see me commit suicide has got one of the most degrading and disgraceful things that could ever have come out of your sorry ass.  To think I actually was beginning to feel sorry for you on how the Army treated you, and how your demons seem to have taken control of you.  All you just did was blatantly show that I made a mistake of being your friend while in Basic, and I wish TRADOC had something of a brain to process your ass out of the Army instead of recycling you back in when you failed, even though you probably would’ve been one of those assholes who failed Basic Training but have a bunch of Army stickers on your vehicle and tell everyone you’re a Veteran.  Also, making a huge, big deal about going back to school on the taxpayer’s dime doesn’t phase me one bit, and do you want to know why it’s because I AM MEDICALLY RETIRED WITH SEVENTY PERCENT DISABILITY (which may well be increasing soon), I was presented with an American flag, and received Certificate of Appreciations from the Chief of Staff, the Sergeant Major of the Army, and from the President of the United States, not Obama but Trump, so suck on that thought for a while.  Also, I’m going back to school on the taxpayer’s dime as well, everything paid for, so I’m sorry that I don’t give a shit about you getting full benefits for school as well.  To think, your stupid ass trying to hide behind a false curtain of proclaiming to be a “Patriot” and a “Christian”, which you are neither of one.  Hell, even calling you those are an insult to those words.  After your comment on suicide, you just proved yourself to be a CINO (Christian In Name Only), and only follow the good book for your own personal gain.  Also, anyone that thinks you’re still a great person after what you said is just as pathetic as you are and extremely delusional from the truth about you.  I just wish another Katrina would come to your shores again and wash your pathetic ass into the gulf to never be heard or seen of till the end of time. 😡

Which obviously you could never do

Just When I Thought My Day Was Going Well.....

Another long pause from typing blogs again, for me.  For the past two months since my last post, I haven't been in the best of health.  After talking to a doctor about what was happening to me, he simply said my immune system is not working properly, which is the reason why I'm getting ill very easily, and terribly I might add.  It is a price I paid being and working in areas that had high radioactivity when I was in the Army.  However, after having tests done I have nothing cancerous in my body, at least for the time being.  I just have to maintain a diet heavy on vitamins and antioxidants to help support my crippled immune system.  On a brighter note, the neighborhood I live in is still nice, neighbors are friendly, and my sports card collection is growing very well.  Also, my addiction to computer games is still rampant, this time I've gotten my MLB 2K10 game to work on my computer (which for some reason didn't work the last time I loaded it onto my laptop), and I've been playing constantly, along creating teams and players, for the past month and a half.  Also, I began to come up with a few new ideas and revising a couple old ones, for a new blog I am going to make.  After concluding some pros and cons of it, I decided to go forward with the blog.  It'll be entitled Ass Kisser and Toxic Leaders, an overview of ideas that the US Army can change or improve, so be on the lookout for that.  Also, it will be a great venting process for me after being in the service for seven and half years, and along with the psychological and mental breakdowns I had in the last year of my service will help me cope with civilian life till the end of my days.   I celebrated my birthday last week, a very quiet celebration really, making it only two years left until I reach forty years old, hurray for me! Plus, feeling better was becoming more and more of a reality for me, the diet is starting to work.  All in all, life was starting to get better, until today.  I went onto the Blogger website to read some posts I am subscribed to, and I saw a new post from the SJW asshole I went to Basic Training back in 2009.  We had a falling out a couple years ago (which for the most part was my fault), and when I tried to apologize to him, the prick pretty much spat on my face.  After that, I decided to wash my hands with the jerk and distance myself from him as much as possible.  Over that time, I started getting messages on Facebook of some other friends of his that he cut the cord with (most who were also prior service too), saying he went nuts and began to cut people out of his life that disagreed with him on any subject.  Apparently, I wasn't the only victim of his madness.  Anyways, today when I was reading his post on Blogger, this asshole now thinks I made a fake Facebook profile of a female that liked all the pages he's associated with.   Seriously?!  I have other issues to tend to than know what this SJW prick is doing.  I guess this idiot is now so overly paranoid of anyone liking his pages and groups he's associated with he'll literally do a background check on them.  I would say if this is a female, then he should check if it's his psychotic ex-girlfriend he had when stationed in South Korea.  The only thing I look at from this moron is his Blogger page and that's it, and it's only to see if he says dumb shit like he did today.  Surprisingly, he was doing really well keeping his mouth shut for the past few months.  It was so much to where I was completely cutting the cord with him and move on to bigger, brighter things in life, like deleting a parody blog I made of the SJW and stop following his posts.  Unfortunately, today he crossed the line once again.  
I don't see this war ending anytime soon.  It looks like it's going to be a long, drawn-out conflict, like between North and South Korea.  I wonder if it's because I know the truth about him, claiming he's a patriot but really is a flag burning SJW because he got butthurt while in the Army.  I'm not saying my time in the Army was rosy, but I'm not going around hating the government as a result of it.  He even has the nuts to say he's going to get the FBI on me for looking at his blog!  For someone who says he hates the government, he sure wants a lot of government intervention.  Maybe that's something theses SJWs do, complain about the government but will cry to them if they get butthurt for any reason.  Also, if you really don't want me to look at your blog, simply to this, DON'T WRITE A FUCKING BLOG!  There is no law saying you cannot look at a pubic page if it's made public!  The FBI will not waste their time telling what people can and cannot look at that is public material.  If it's the parody blog I made, well, tough shit.  The POTUS deals with thousands of pictures a day making fun of him, and no one is put in jail as a result of it.  You've really gone off the rocker this time, perhaps you should consider going into a mental institution. 

Yes you fucking do